Poem: Numbness

   Numbness is a gift to treasure. 

   Free from pain

   Away from fear. 

   A gateway to heaven

   Escape route from hell

   For in numbness I embrace oblivion, 

   the promise of nothingness.

   2011©Agapin Edrayll

    Image: Atonement, 2007

Poem: I Fear...

   I fear fire because it reminds me of hell

   I fear blood for it takes the colors out of me

   I fear the future for it is not within my reach

   I fear nightmares because they can eat me in my sleep

   I fear children for in their beauty they are deadly

   But my biggest fear of all is to be stuck in a life that I 

   cannot walk away from at any possible moment.

   2011©Agapin Edrayll

Poem: Deceitful Victory

   The war is not a pretty sight
   Death came in and stole the light
   Even though a winner is hailed
   Still all are hurt, scathed, and pained.

   The more you look, 
   The more you’ll see,
   Men’s sorrow and cruelty
   They say time will set us free,
   But don’t be fools and listen to me
   This will stay for all eternity.

   2011©Agapin Edrayll

    Image: Schindler's List, 1993

Poem: My Uncharted Life

   Behold my uncharted life
   Having walked this earth
   Bearing the eyes of the negative
   I faced the trials and tribulations of mankind
   Rejection and despection
   Cries and demise
   Hatred and madness
   Devastation and desolation
   Tyranny and cruelty of men
   They are true
   I lived them too
   Though my sinful heart begged me not to But much to my
   shameful ignorance
   of this event they call life There was more to it than what I
   have seen.
   I witnessed joy and happiness
   Acceptance and admiration Smiles and blissful cries
   Forgiveness, Selflessness,
   Sincerity, Friendship,
   And love, Sweet young love. You were the light at the end of
   the tunnel
   that I was so eager of catching all this time.
   Now that I had a taste of your light,
   turning back would never be an option any more.
   For you are now a part of me today,
   and for all eternity.

   2011©Agapin Edrayll

Poem: The Art Of Numbness

   With cross-country wars and economic turmoil, 

   corruption and slavery, 

   and even racism is just around the corner. 

   I also have a battle going on in my daily life. 

   An inner war I’ve been struggling on for a while. 

   There has to be a decision. 

   A will I must cling to. 

   The choices scream themselves to be chosen. 

   So to take the path that only few have trodden, 

   I chose to numb myself.

   2011©Agapin Edrayll

    Image: The Pianist, 2002

Poem: The Conqueror

   Today I will claim the wind

   Swim the savage seas

   Mount the brazen earth

   Paint the unyielding skies

   And tomorrow I shall rule the world

   2011©Agapin Edrayll

Poem: Ah! Seasons Come And Go

   My summer breeze so fresh but in haste,

                  had me coming quickly to appease my ablaze.

   The spring so merry, calm, and cozy,

             flowers’ rebirth their crowning glory.

   The autumn spirit drags leaves to the ground,

                 the mark of darkness coming along a shroud.

   Winter’s here who cold even bear?

               Sober with no one to share these shivers.

   All praying for another season to appear.

   Ah so seasons come and go,

   children play and grow,

   and the thought of seeing you

   would be relieving ancient feelings.

   So ancient that they were meant to be buried

   and never to resurface again.

   2011©Agapin Edrayll

Poem: You

   You make me question my decisions

   You make me unravel the past

   You make me feel regret

   You make me doubt my love

   2011©Agapin Edrayll

    Image: Pride and Prejudice

Poem: Amidst It All

   Standing here firm and strong 

   I stood tall throughout the storm 

   I was your shoulder when you battled pain 

   When she left you stranded in the rain.   

   Don’t be sober please stay strong

   I will catch you if ever you fall  

   But I hope my dear that you could see 

   That all this time we were meant to be.

   2011©Agapin Edrayll

    Image: Mr. Nobody

Poem: Apathetic lover

   We grew up loving each other

   Never a day apart

   Happiness altogether

   Sadness has no place in our hearts.

   Then you saw someone new

   And I learned to hate you too.

   What happened to the love that drove us together?

   Was it the anchor that tore us apart?

   Was there too much love?

   Too much that we grew tired of it.

   I never prepared for this to happen

   Because it never crossed my ever brilliant mind

   You have always and always been there

   And the thought of your absence pains me

   What more on the day of losing you.

   2011©Agapin Edrayll

    Image: Wuthering Heights 1992

Poem: The Treasure

   In this life full of uncertainty 

   Treat every waking moment as gift 

   Be it a blessing to treasure

   Make use of your life

   Live as if tomorrow you’ll meet death’s embracing arms 

   And learn the value of living 

   As if you were bound to live forever.

   2011©Agapin Edrayll

    Image: Heavenly Creatures, 1994

Poem: This Life Isn’t Ours To Own

   We were running the same route one step at a time, 

   parallel to each other, 

   side by side following the rhythm of the other. 

   We tried to make it spark

   but it wouldn't work out. 

   We loved one another like no other 

   but circumstances are pulling us away from each other.

   What we had is bad timing…really bad timing.

   Maybe today isn’t our time. 

   Maybe this life isn’t ours to own. 

   Maybe someday, sometime in a different dimension 

   Where that two oceans finally meet 

   I hope we would find our way back to each other 

   and finally be together.

   2011©Agapin Edrayll

    Image: Wuthering Heights 1992

Poem: Eyes Of The Pessimist

   I am a pessimist

   I see the negatives

   I judge the idiots

   I scream your woes

   I live in prejudice

   I laugh at injuries

   I embrace racism

   I support fascism

   I love to see the wrong in everyone

   So that I could rise among anyone

   I am prejudiced

   I discriminate

   I incriminate

   I point out the wrong.

   My soul is now blackened

   My life is now shrouded

   Lies and bigotry are all consuming me

   My eyes are of the negative

   They are the eyes of a pessimist

   2011©Agapin Edrayll

    Image: Girl, Interrupted

Poem: Then There Was This Happy Moment

   Then there was this happy moment

   A short lived dream 

   An escape from reality

   A fast lane to fantasy 

   Every smile meant a smile 

   No pretentions 

   No alibis 

   No lies 

   No demise 

   It took me my lifetime to reach this moment

   Everything was good 

   No glitches 

   No detours 

   All was well until reality came to dwell  

   In that moment

   In that brief moment

   Happiness was like no other

   I’d rather relieve that happy moment for all eternity 

   Than live my life looking back, 

   facing regrets for the rest of my life

   2011©Agapin Edrayll

    Image: Eternal Sunshine Of A Spotless Mind

Poem: Hope lost

   When hope is gone and all is lost,

   we feel the pain and mourn the loss.

   The anvil fell it did not serve us well.

   So now where it is,

   is where we shall dwell.

   What was once strong and holy,

   now remember it is hope in name only.

   2011©Agapin Edrayll

    Image: 300

Predestined Caricature Of Intimacy

   I breathe these living lines that pierce my beating heart

   And every page of these tattered books I keep

   The letters stab every ounce of me.

   With these sea of words that swarm their way around me

   It seems that I am a part of you and as you are of me,

   That we cannot do anything but to live along with this

   Predestined caricature of intimacy.

   2011©Agapin Edrayll
    Image: Jane Eyre 1996